So… randomly I decided to upload a makeup tutorial video tonight. I have been watching makeup YouTubers since the summer I graduated high school in 2009. I have always wanted to do a makeup tutorial but was too nervous. The fear of having others judge me for really anything has been a struggle for me. For some reason I have always been afraid of the criticism of people I know. Having people in my life think I am weird or lame for doing makeup on social media has been a personal barrier I can’t seem to break. I have been blogging here for a little over a year, but most of my friends don’t even know I have a makeup blog/ Instagram! Everyone knows I love all things beauty- related, but don’t know that I do some social media stuff with it. Although I am proud of my content, the fear of being “bad” at it and unsuccessful prevents me from publicizing it on my personal social media accounts.
Tonight I was watching a video by NikkieTutorials where she looked back at the first video she ever uploaded. It was pretty inspiring to see how far she has come! It gave me the push I needed to upload a video. Why not right? I filmed a tutorial back in August that I edited but never uploaded, and tonight I posted it.
It has like one view, but I’m still proud of myself for having the courage to do it! Here’s the link if you would like to check it out for yourself: https://youtu.be/N9WyL-HoErY
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